Books Can Hurt

I know that i haven't posted in a while but to be fair not much has been happening other than packing for vacation (i leave tomorrow which is friday since i'm currently writing this at 3:00 thursday morning). Also, Eric hasn't been blogging either and though i know that he has been very busy and has an excuse i still feel a little abandoned.

Anyway, Today i started reading It's Kind of a Funny Story which i've owned and have wanted to read for almost a year now. Anyway, i wish that i had started it last month when i was already so depressed (and actually had some time to read). So, i'm kind of addicted to the book (both because it's entertaining and because i can relate to the main character and his thoughts) and i've read about 122 pages today already. However, the book makes me cry quite often because while he is being depressed and thinking thoughts that most normal people would just think 'that's sad' when reading, i read his thoughts and can relate to them. So then i think 'i understand' or 'i've been there' or 'i agree' or 'i think so/have thought so too' etc. Then i remember stuff related to his thoughts, my own thoughts or experiences and i cry not only because of the painful memories but also because it makes me fear that i actually am depressed. then i try desperately (and sometimes succeed) to find differences between his symptoms and mine.

Now i don't feel like sleeping even though i know that i should, but mostly i just want my mom to get up so that i can hug her even though i know that she will be mad that i am awake so late at night.

And so i guess i should be going, to attempt to sleep before a day full of packing.

Sleep well readers!

PS- I finally figured out how to fix the spacing issue in the blog! yay!

Routine

I figured it was about time for an update. Even though nothing new has really happened. Monday i had my first guitar lesson with my father and he taught me 3 things: 1. How to tune the guitar 2. The 4 basic chords (G, E minor, C, and D) 3. You don't learn during a guitar lesson, you learn between guitar lessons

Other than that my life has mostly just been following its usual routine. Which is why i would like to dedicate this post to routines. As much as routine frustrates me, it also helps keep me sane. So, I would like to share with you my daily routine.
1. wake up (usual pretty late over the summer)
2. check facebook, twitter, email, and then youtube
3. watch new youtube videos from people/series that i actually stay up-to-date on (with 2 exceptions)
4. talk to mom when she gets home
5. eat dinner
6. watch the 2 exception videos with my mom
7. watch tv with mom
8. say goodnight to mom
9. watch more tv/play technic pack
10. go to bed or hide in my room until mom has left for work (has yet to succeed)
Then of course there are lesser things in the weekly routine to discuss (i'm not sure why i'm sharing all of this but it is on my mind. feel free to quit reading here, you won't miss much):
Youtube videos i watch (when they're new): Tobygames: Zelda: The Skyward Sword, Minecraft, Skyrim, Happy Wheels(one of the two exception videos) Yogscest: anything minecraft (with a few exceptions) (also the other exception video) Wheezywaiter
TV schedule: Monday: i don't watch anything except occasionally i watch Hell's Kitchen and Master Chef with my mom
Tuesday: Total Drama Revenge of the Island; occasionally i watch Hell's Kitchen and Master Chef with my mom
Wednesday: Franklin and Bash is on too late for my mom so we watch it on demand over the weekend; Futurama
Thursday: Men at Work is on too late for my mom so we watch it on demand over the weekend; occasionally The Choice and Take me Out
Friday: Common Law Saturday night: marathon of Psych Sunday: nothing good usually =/ Late at night i usually watch Friends, sometimes Seinfeld, Futurama or The Office (on netflix).
So... Yeah I've pretty much just described my whole summer, but if anything else of interest happens you will be the first to know. Until then i will probably only make boring posts like this. Hoping that i didn't bore you to death! Danielle

Summer Goals

I could rant about some random stuff tonight (this morning?), but i'm too lazy to so instead i will keep my promise and discuss my goals for this summer. 1. Finish my 3 summer books, french packet, and AP calculus book work before august (probably not going to happen). 2. Learn the basics of playing guitar so that i can focus on learning songs during the school year (this is for my senior project next year so it must get done, tho my dad is supposed to help me and most likely won't). 3. Play the technic pack and work my way up to present day with Duncan's tutorial/adventure videos on youtube. Afterwards i will try to keep up with the new videos that come out too. 4. Practice underhand serving in badminton (this is because my friend Josh's senior project is going to be to start a badminton team/club at our school and he asked me to be a part of it). 5. Possibly start driving school if we can afford it. 6. A 1 week vacation in north carolina with my family from both connecticut and ohio. 7. Starting a youtube channel with my cousin and her boyfriend with all of us doing commentary/walkthroughs for video games. I beleive that is just about everything that i will be attempting to accomplish this summer. Wish me luck!

Do I Ever Sleep?

Before i even start this post the answer the title is rarely. But anyway, i would like to address again that i am a complete nerd, since that will play a big role in this post. So, first of all i should explain why i am still awake at 5 AM. Sadly, this will be a long story only likely to be extended severely due to the fact that i ramble more when i'm tired. Which, by the way, i don't feel very tired despite the lack of sleep. Well, as you may or may not know, this is the beginning of the 2nd official day of summer vacation and my 3rd day of summer vacation (i didn't need to come in the last day due to a lack of finals that day). Of course this means that i am yet again starting my horrible sleeping system, which i desperately want to avoid as much as possible this year mostly because of the goals i have for the summer (which i will discuss later). So rather than go to bed at 5 AM i am going to attempt to stay awake until at least 10 PM. Well back to the real story, i stayed up so late because i recently started playing with the technic pack (http://www.technicpack.net/) for minecraft. Anyway, i got kinda addicted to it. I started following a tutorial-ish thing for the tekkit pack (the multiplayer version) by a guy named Duncan whom i find entertaining. So while i was watching his videos i decided to try the singleplayer version of the mod and actually follow his tutorial. So from roughly 11:30 PM to 4:30 AM i was playing the game and following his tutorial until i decided how late it was and that i had no desire to attempt to learn something new this early in the morning. When i quit the game on my mom's laptop (since mine hates everything but vanilla minecraft) i desided to check everything (facebook, twitter, email, youtube) one last time before laying down to watch tv and possibly fall asleep. I never know why i check all of these social networks so often when i usually know that nobody is trying to contact me (especially past midnight) and i know around what times the youtubers that i watch post videos. But this morning when i checked twitter i saw that Eric had told me (as part of a conversation we were having on twitter earlier) that he hoped i would continue my blogging. At that point i realized that it might actually be good for me if i tried to keep up with this and so i began my writing. However, i believe that this post has gotten a bit too long and i am beginning to forget everything that i had wanted to say, so i will end this. My next post, if nothing else comes up, will most likely be about my goals for the summer. EXTRAS: I have been watching old episodes of Futurama all night. Every appearance of 'this morning' or any variation of that had to be retyped since i keep thinking of it being night, not morning. I do not understand why it gets rid of my spacing as soon as i publish a post.

A Return?

I'm considering following Eric's lead and bringing back the blogging, even though this is my first post in about 2 years. More than likely it will not become a regular thing for me, but who knows? Like him, I am typing to nobody really. However, the difference in my case is that only one person, at the most, will read this. I've been so conflicted and tortured lately and i haven't felt like anyone was there for me, forgetting of course that this blog even existed. However, reconnecting with Eric, if all goes well, could mean that there is still some hope after all. I won't keep you for too long, reader, for i do not actually have much to say that i am really comfortable revealing to the internet, even though i do feel quite safe in the belief that nobody will read this. However there are a few things that i wish to express about myself: 1. I am a complete nerd and i am ok with this even if others aren't. 2. I have no life and though i am please with some ways that i spend my time, i do wish that i had people to spend time with in the real world. 3. I am paranoid. Pretty much all the time. 4. I miss the past, hate the present, and fear the future. Even though everyone is always told not to. Which doesn't console me, just makes me feel worse. That's about all that i have to offer right now i believe. I'm not sure when i will post again, if ever, so i will simply say goodbye. Thanks for reading ♥

Camping, Birthday, and Whatnot

so i got home from camping yesterday and i had a lot of fun with my mom, boyfriend, cousins, aunt, and aunt's boyfriend.

it was a good week but the weekend got a little hectic. i was happy to be home though especially because i had my birthday party the night before we left for camping.

i had a lot to catch up on when i got home and it took most of yesterday.

oh and i forgot that i have some new i can tell you now!

on the fourth of july my family was told some news that we had to keep secret for a while but we can now share. my aunt (Katie) is pregnant! she did her own ultrasound too (that's how cool she is). in the words of her son Matthew "she has a baby in her belly from the baby doctor".

i dont feel like putting too much info in this post, sorry.

i just thought i would update you a little bit.

Thanks for your time!

The Family Gathering

so on thursday i helped my aunt move some stuff out of her old house and into her new house in portland. i ended spending that night and the next night with my cousin in the ranch house that is also on my aunt's property but in now my cousin's house. its a really nice house and i was happy to see Jessica, Dickson, and their kittens, Remy, Scout, and Chowder again.

Saturday we had a huge family get together. i didn't know a few people there and others i hadn't seen since i was little so it was a little awkward for me. there were about 22 people there so it was very loud and crowded.

Here are the people that were there that i can name at least:

My grandparents
My aunts: Missy, Katie, Christine
My mom
Me
My cousins: Jessica, Kevin, Kelly, Matthew
My uncle: Kevin
Jessica's boyfriend: Dickson
My grandfather's siblings: Roger, Ross, Ginger, Chuckie
Chuckie's wife: Laurie
Roger's wife: Julie
Skippy
Gary
Joice
Ross's daughter: Alison

that's about all the names i remember

anyway it was kinda hectic there and we were there for 7 hours (we didn't leave until around 12:30)

the next day (yesterday) me, my mom, kevin and kelly, my aunt missy, my grandparents, and roger and julie all went over to my aunt's house again and stayed there for about 5 hours while roger and my grandfather worked on the filter for my aunt's pool. i hung out with Jess and the kittens most of the day. the kids were getting really annoying =/.

anyway just wanted to fill you in on all that has been happening. hoping to post to 10mow by 2morrow.

Until next time Readers!

-DeDe (Danielle)

Stay cool!